false hope

You are taking all of my heart, my mind, my sweet memories 

I saw your post 

You are out there, having fun with that sweet girl 

Thank you for reminding me, that I don’t deserve this live 

No, I am not making things up 

But I thought I could handle it better when you are beside me 

I was hanging on a false hope that you gave me 

I ask once, “why don’t you stop me?”

I know it already, okay 

I am not going to pursue anything 

Again 

You have my words 

I am sad 

But again, I don’t even deserve to be sad